Picked Up Ben’s Remains

Ben two days before he was put down

We picked up our dog Ben’s remains this past weekend, that was tough. These past three months have been hard because it has been such a dark time with the animals being sick.

Even though we know our pets are still here with us because energy never dies, the lack of touching them, caring for them and Loving them and they loving us back, we deeply miss.

The house has a weird silence I can feel from the lack of the animal’s energy not being here in the flesh. The odd thing is I remember this feeling when my parents passed.

I was in a different state when my mom died, yet I could still feel that weird silence that lack of her spirit in her physical body here on earth. It is incredible how we are so connected, even when we are far apart. It gives me a gimps of understanding into how twins are so connected.

For me, night time is the hardest. I find great comfort in tucking my family in at night and knowing everyone is safe and sound.

My cat Princess use to be in her favorite sleeping place on my husband’s chair, curled up in a ball. Ben use to sleep on the floor next to my bed. I would give him a big kiss on his head and say good night to him, and he would hug me with his head nudges.

I told my husband that I feel like I am missing half of my family, and the truth is I am.

Even though we just lost both of our long time pets to cancer unexpectedly back to back, we still find the glimmer of hope in the pain to help keep our vibration high- JOY-HOPE-LOVE-GRATITUDE


R.I.P our beloved friend



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